Where does my help come from?

Psalm 121

¹ I lift up my eyes to the mountains—
    where does my help come from?
² My help comes from the Lord,
    the Maker of heaven and earth.

³ He will not let your foot slip—
    he who watches over you will not slumber;
⁴ indeed, he who watches over Israel
    will neither slumber nor sleep.

⁵ The Lord watches over you—
    the Lord is your shade at your right hand;
⁶ the sun will not harm you by day,
    nor the moon by night.

⁷ The Lord will keep you from all harm—
    he will watch over your life;
⁸ the Lord will watch over your coming and going
    both now and forevermore.

Walking through the daily questions I look around with confusion aired on my face.

My heart was questioning everything, every decision, every action, every word that came out of my mouth as well as every word that came back to my ears.

What was going on? 

Something was happening here. Something outside my realm of earthly perspective. 

Things where lining up in a strange, yet obvious course of events that I was struggling to make any sense of.

The battle was over the top and my strength was on the edge of gone.

With an anxious, exhausted breath. I gave it up. I let it all slid from my own hands to the hands that where reaching out to me. 

I felt the weight of everything lift off of me, and I felt myself starting to slid. I was sliding downward, but not in a freaky, murky bleakness. I was sliding deep into solid peace. I was sliding into a quiet peaceful rest, so full of glory. 

Strength started to return to my heart and soul. A strength so far outside of me that I knew without a doubt that it was the strength of my Lord. 

He was reaching out taking everything that was holding me back and baring down on me. He was lifting me up out of the crazy and setting me in a place of rest. 

He removed all fear and replaced confusion with confidence. He settled my mind and filled it with His plans and glory. He changed the doubt to laughter. 

He is the author of my life. No other. He has plans for my life that might not make sense in the view of this world. But His glory goes beyond this world. 

I am faithful no matter how small your faith is.

The size of your faith doesn’t change my faithfulness. All the times you doubt or wonder and step backward only to move forward again, I see it, I’ve watched you grow through each step, forward and backward. I have loved you through each moment.  You are not alone in your walk. You are not alone in your thoughts and wanderings. You are not alone in this journey. 

I have brought you through one thing after another. I have traveled up mountains and walked down mountains with you.  I have brought you through streams that have rushed over your head with fury. I have kept you afloat and carried you though moment after moment.  

I have gently stroked your hair and kissed your head as you slept with exhaustion in my arms.  

I have dreamed with you and laughed with you. I have handed you tool after tool when you needed them. I have stretched you and ministered to your weary worn out heart. I have seen you at your worst and risen you to new heights. 

I have watched your faith grow and then shrink and then grow again. I have held you in every season of life.  

I believe in you. I believe in the girl I’ve created you to be. You will stand in a place of honor and you will sit with the warriors and step forward as a general in my army. 

You know well your greatest weapon is the power of my love. You understand the wisdom of using the sward of the spirit on yourself to remove the darts of the enemy. You know the importance of stepping forward even when you don’t know where you are going. You understand my faithfulness even when you feel like your faith is failing you, or you are failing your faith.

You know my faithfulness even when your faith is weak.  You know and understand that I and only I WILL MAKE YOU STRONG, and that I HAVE YOU!  

The greatest Love

Greater love has no one than this, that they laid down their life for their friend. 

These where the words bringing me into this valentines day.

The truth of love, the greatest love you can have, the only real reason love exists in this world, the picture of a man who gave up everything so that we wouldn’t have to suffer the total loss and separation from the father who loved us more then anything.

I’ve never been much of a fan of this consumer holiday. I don’t get how this world can celebrate a love they don’t even seem to understand. It all appears to be a form of buying someone’s love.

It’s a little painful to watch the world go wild with the pink and fluff of this holiday celebrating “Love”. I mean what does true love even look like?!

Let me give you a picture…

In the beginning was God. God is love.

When sin entered the world there was a wall that went up. A perfect God cannot be contaminated by sin.

This made God sad. He created us for the every purpose of love and relationship, not just with each other, but with himself.

God said that the punishment for sin was death and eternal separation from Him.

So he sent his only son. A son that was very much him down to this world to live a life much like we do only without the sin part.

He sent this child to the world with a mission. A mission to obliterate and destroy that wall of separation.

When the son was about 33 years old he gave himself up for this cause. This mission. To die the death that would bring down the wall and bring back a unity and love between God and his people.

But death could not keep Him. After 3 days dead this man came back to life. The wall had been ripped apart and still this mans story would not end in death.

Every sin in our lives was forgiven, the ones in the past and the ones in the future.

There is nothing we can do that will separate us from the love that God has for us. That love pursues us.

Day after day some of us try to build up that wall again. We try to ignore or discredit the thought that we are a forgiven people and we try to count the ways we shouldn’t be loved and why we will never make it.

When someone else does the work for you and all you have to do is step in a take the reward and the gift of accomplishment it is a hard thing to comprehend.

I think the hardest part of this is to choose to believe that anyone would ever die for us.

Part of the reason this is so hard is that there is two forces at work here. The God who already won, and the devil who is seeking any foothold or thought that he can attach himself too and drag us away from perfect love. Away from perfect forgiveness.

It’s time to stomp on the devils head and say no more, it’s time to say I want the truth. I’m taking it. It’s a gift to me, and I choose to receive it.

I CHOOSE LOVE.

Greater love has no one than this, that they lay down their life for a friend. John 15:13

That’s love. That’s real love.