Never
Enough.
Sometimes
my heart screams at the thought of leaving. Not because I don’t want to go, or
because I’m not soooo excited, but because of the people I leave behind.
I
have a lot of people in my life. People I love more then life itself. People I fear for. People I feel for; If I
could take care of everyone’s problems and solve them all, I would.
In
James 1 it tells us to consider it a great gift when tests and challenges come
from all sides. Under pressure your faith is forced into the open and it shows
it’s true colors. It tells us to not run too quickly from our problems but to
walk through them and learn and grow from them, so that we can become full and
complete.
I
know that God places different challenges and trials in everyone’s life and for
me to try to take those away from someone would mean a missed opportunity for
their growth. I hate to see my people in pain, but I believe that it is more
beneficial for them if I learn to help them walk through that pain, instead of
taking the pain from them.
Something
that God has been teaching me this week, is that I will never be enough. I can do everything in my power and give my
whole life to help others, but at the end of the day it’s not my job to be
enough. It’s His job. There will never be
fulfillment in a person’s life without the presence of the Holy Spirit. At the end of the day my only job is to lay
them into Gods hands. My love for these people wont diminish or fade, but I
will never be enough, and I don’t want to be enough. God is soooo much more
then enough.
